Drew and I are going job hunting on Wednesday/Thursday. No point being somewhere you’re not enjoying. And today or tomorrow he hears back from Bexley’s police force about maybe being a police man. It’d be great if he got it.

Also, the dustbin men here suck cause they just keep going, not even thinking about if someone is sleeping. :(

Just had yet another argument with my mother.

It appears that having a conversation with my brother about school and stuff, is apparently me being horrible. So the fact that he’s abusive and his life revolves around drugs is my fault as well then. Anytime I screwed up, she was welcome to point out how it was my fault, however, I’ve never been in trouble with the police, and yet his doing so is still my fault.

I’m rather sick of it. I cannot wait to move out/go back to Drews. Cannot be bothered to deal with arguing over stuff and being unsure if my brother is going to start a fight. Too much effort.

After that, they’re being all cuddly and she’s all ‘Jeff can do no wrong’ and I’m yet again condemned to my room (not that that’s a bad thing, I just would like to be able to get a cup of tea now…).

He does have his nice moments, but there are too many times where he’s instigating arguments and causing problems. And I’m not comfortable living in a place where I’ve been attacked. Not my day.

On a happier note, I’ve just thrown away 8 bottles of Mountain Dew, which has been a deadly consumption for the day. I have a fond memory of downing a litre at Download, and instantly feeling sick cause different guys at the gates told me different things. However I got £20 out of downing it. Oh Mountain Dew.

Silver nail foil by Barry M Love it.

This.

This is a goal page for me for the next 365 days.

I’m turning 21 in 2012 and my aim is to be at a really happy place with myself and my life.

I have a good career, but I need to really engulf myself in it.
I have a wonderful boyfriend, who I need to show more how much I love him.
I have a great figure, which I need to show with more respect.
I have a fantastic home, but I need to live in a new one to develop.

So 2012 should hopefully bring:

1. A more refreshing outlook into my life - as in, no more negative me (or as much!)
2. A place at work where I’m truly 100% passionate.
3. Moving home with my Drew.
4. A happier me; in sense of person - be that weight loss, hair cut, whatever. 
5. The start of the future.
6.  Keeping family together.

If I can achieve this, then really, that’s all I’m bothered about.

What I’ll be bringing into 2012 from 2011:

1. A better persona.
2. A reinvention of myself.
3. The start of weight-loss and waist training - 26” currently.
4. A fantastic relationship where I’m truly happy.
5. A tidier person (I’m getting there!).
6. My own happiness.